i have a problem. whenever i am asked any question that requires any thinking whatsoever, i choke. i freeze up. you could ask me a question, even a simple math question, and for some reason i have to sit and think for a second sometimes longer. i dont know why. its almost as if i get nervous that i dont know the answer, and i just freeze. i dont know how to explain it. i feel as though i am always, always in a fog. i cant figure it out. i cant focus on anything, i just sit there and think. and then i think about thinking. and then i think about what i was thinking about before. i have no consistency, rhyme or rhythm to anything i do. i used to be really smart. i used to have confidence and take pride in my ability to do everyday things. i havent even had a girlfriend in two years, and i have a very hard time getting close to people. its like my subconscious makes every situation awkward and foreign. i would never turn to someone else for my personal problems such as this, but i dont know what else to do. i used to think as you get older, you get smarter and progress in life. now i have a job that i can barely handle because im always in a cloud in my mind. i dont know where to turn, which is why im posting this. ANY help is appreciated, even recommendations as to where to go for psychology testing or whatever. i did therapy for 3 years straight, gained nothing except the ability to overanalyze everything i do, say, think and hear. now everything that occurs i think "why did i do that? why did i say that?" everything. i feel helpless. ADHD? ADD? Whatever it is, i need to know what to call it, or where to go, or learn whatever i can do to try to improve my situation. tired of feeling dumb. please help, this is my last stand.
sorry for the long post
